Demon of Depression

Thought I'd vent a little with some poetry. I do suffer depression and it's affecting me badly, and I've gone 7 years suffering with depression, 2 of which no one knew I was suffering. I had my realization when I was 12, I did self-harm at 13 and 14, which I recovered from and I speak out against it, as well as bullying which led that to happening. My depression somewhat lifted from 15-16, but 17-18 I have fallen in deep. I've gained weight and I lost my passion to do art for a while. I felt like giving up on it from constantly being told it was stupid of me to choose it as a career. I've also been very stressed with college stuff. I've recently turned 18 and now I'm being hit with real life as an adult. I will be attending college this fall which I'm very nervous about. I will be sharing a roommate and everything, which will be a big step in my life. I'm hoping this year will make a change in my life and allow my depression to leave me. I want to live and breathe and I can't with this demon weighing me down. I hope some of you guys out there know what I'm going through, and if you could leave a comment with your story, that would be great.